What a CRAZY way to start the new year!

I do actually think it was perfect, because it had me completely reliant on God.  It got REAL real fast!  I have received lots of comments and kudos from my post on Friday, and I’m so glad I did it.  Many said I was so BRAVE to post it, but for the record, I was so scared and embarrassed because of my AWESOME baby announcement (that was sooo flippin’ cool!), and I was hurting and I just needed to spew.  But you all poured out love and mercy and although my heart has a mini peanut size hole, right now, it is GLOWING with so much love.  I’m not sure if I could say thank you enough to everyone.

One other thing one of my friends shared with me too…Sometimes it’s really hard to hear those sentiments, that “God did this for a reason.” or “This was God’s will, & He will be praised through this.”  Big picture…yes true, but I love a God that I KNOW is with me on those quiet nights when i lay in bed and silent tears are rolling down my face, or those drives where I wrestle through the “what ifs” and the tears of heartache.  He’s there, by my side, crying with me.  I serve a God who hurts along with me and is heartbroken that I am heartbroken.  Because my God doesn’t EVER leave me or forsake me.  Ever.  And that God is holding my sweet baby and preparing it for the day we meet again.  What a mind blowing day that will be…what a wonderful “sob-fest” of a day that will be!

Memorize:

For his anger is but for a moment,
    and his favor is for a lifetime.^[a]
Weeping may tarry for the night,
    but joy comes with the morning.  Psalms 30:5

Highlights:

• Especially over break, we got to see LOTS of progress on the spec house!  It is REALLY starting to come together!  We are almost to the fun part…cabinets & counter tops.
• During the roller coaster that was last week, Tricia and I got lots of great time together!  AWESOME combo when your friend is a councilor.
• It was hard to say goodbye on Monday after two weeks home with the babes, but it made the nights sweeter.  Time is precious and my girls are goofballs!

Goals Accomplished:

• I accomplished my goal of not setting ANY goals over break 🙂
• Got all my Christmas decorations put away.  (THANKS MOM!)

Goals for this Week:

• Allow myself to decompress a little more.
• Set some long range goals for the year and POST them somewhere.  I’ll let you know what they are when I figure that out.

Word of the Year:
Tricia helped me with this one…

I needed a word the meant that I was giving 2016 to God in every possible way…for myself, my marriage, my family, my job, my fun job, my free time…my plan needs to be God’s plan!  I told Tricia, “I need a word that means, ‘Not in control.” And BOOM…she said.  Surrender.

What did I surrender to God this week?

Have a GREAT WEEK!